Tuesday, December 20, 2005

stretching me . . .

It has been a strange few weeks in a number of ways
Creating community, moving to a new house, welcoming guests, being welcomed as new members of a neighborhood, getting calls from old friends from out of the blue, connecting with people in all sorts of strange ways, but mostly for me it has strange that I feel I have moved a couple of “clicks” in my vision both of what I am doing and what is going on around me.

Simply put – I am being stretched in ways that I did not imagine or even consider.

You could stop reading there if you like – or stay with me for a few examples.

I have been reading “Don’t Think of the Elephant”
Alongside "The Rapture Exposed"
And "A Million Little Pieces"
(which at least helps me focus on something else)

I am a liberal, twin cities girl, with a background in English, German and team building living in a math/science culture with a high regard for conservative religion and conservative politics (very few of whom happen to speak german)

So I have been though the drill of convincing myself that there are others like me here, and then to the position that there is no on e like me here and I have now found myself at a turning point.

Of course I had the grandiose ideas that I was coming to give this community their salvation – what mission developer doesn’t have a little of that in them? I realize how backwards I can be sometimes – and I find myself watching and listening to the voice of God calling for change in me. I am also here to listen and to learn and to grow.

Who would have thought the queen of generalizations would be called into a community of scientists and mathematicians? Who would consider that a young woman would be called into a community, which holds the premise that we need a “father-figure” to rule over us?

So I am learning, and leaning and connecting and finding my way, finding God’s garden in the scientific world. Does anyone have a good reference to Quantum Physics?